I dove into my hell to find comfort in my demons. When only evil speaks to me there is no way to break even to find a way into heaven. It makes me just want to scream and cry but the tears won’t come out, the scream stays inside, I let it billow and my happiness goes away. The chains will stay, anger, depression, my own separation. It’s 2.10 am and right now, all I want to do is go and lie in the road. I just want to lie in the rain… It would be so nice and peaceful… I wouldn’t move, even if a car was coming, I wouldn’t cry, scream or move out of the way. I would just take a deep breath in and close my eyes. 

 

I love you enough to fight for you, compromise for you, and sacrifice myself for you if needed. I love you enough to miss you incredibly when we’re apart, no matter what length of time it is for and regardless the distance. I love you enough to believe in our relationship, to stand by it through the worst of times, to have faith in our strength as a couple, and to never give up on us. My love is enough to spend the rest of my life with you, to be there for you when you need me or want me, and never, ever want to leave you or live without you.

I love you this much.

 

Precisando muito de um

“eu amo você, eu estou aqui. Eu não me importo se você precisa ficar acordada a noite toda chorando, eu vou ficar com você. Se você precisar de remédios de novo, vá em frente, tome. Se você não precisar, eu vou amar você também. Não há nada que você possa fazer que vá fazer você perder meu amor. Vou proteger você até a sua morte, e depois dela eu ainda vou proteger você. Eu sou mais forte que tudo isso e sou mais corajoso que a solidão e nada me deixará cansado”.

 

O tempo parece mais devagar, e eu estou muito menos consciente de tudo. As vezes eu paro e olho pro relógio, desejando que minhas mãos se movam e me provem que eu ainda estou viva. Elas vão se mover, talvez. Os minutos passam como horas. Frequentemente eu durmo durante o dia. Eu mal me mexo, falo ou como. Eu estou sempre com frio. Eu gostaria de nunca mais acordar de novo.

 

I feel empty.
It’s 2 am.
I have tears rolling down, they are full of meaning.
The pain when I smile, don’t come alone.
I have scars that cover my body.
And soon, this pain will be the only thing I fell.

 
Fears. They are all coming back, hunting me, and I feel they will never stop. 

Fears. They are all coming back, hunting me, and I feel they will never stop. 

 
We’ll have a fucking movie! The Magical World is back guys :DDDD 

We’ll have a fucking movie! The Magical World is back guys :DDDD 

 
Road trip coming soon! 

Road trip coming soon! 

 
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